[JAMik]

To Sheila

twilight fades through blisered avalon
the sky's cruel torch on aching autobahn
into the uncertain divine
we scream into the last divide

you make me real
you make me real
strong as I feel
you make me real

sheila rides on crashing nightingale
intake eyes leave passing vapor trails
with blushing brilliance alive
because it's time to arrive

you make me real
you make me real
strong as I feel
you make me real

lately I just can't seem to believe
discard my friends to change the scenery
it meant the world to hold a bruising faith
but now it's just a matter of grace

a summer storm graces all of me
highway warm sing silent poetry
I could bring you the light
and take you home into the night

you make me real ;

lately I just can't seem to believe

you make me real ;

discard my friends to change the scenery
strong as I feel ;

it meant the world to hold a bruising faith
you make me real ;

but now it's just a matter of grace

Ava Adore

it's you that I adore
you will always be my whore
you'll be a mother to my child

and a child to my heart



we must never be apart
we must never be apart


lovely girl you're the beauty in my world
without you there aren't reasons left to find

and I'll pull your crooked teeth
you'll be perfect just like me
you'll be a lover in my bed

and a gun to my head

we must never be apart
we must never be apart


lovely girl you're the murder in my world
dressing coffins for the souls
I've left to die

drinking mercury
to the mystery of all that you should ever leave behind

in time

in you I see dirty
in you I count stars
in you I feel so pretty
in you I taste God
in you I feel so hungry
in you I crash cars
we must never be apart

drinking mercury to the mystery
of all that you should ever seek to find
lovely girl you're the murder in my world
dressing coffins for the souls I've left behind

in time


we must never be apart

and you'll always be my whore

cause you're the one that i adore

and I'll pull your crooked teeth

you'll be perfect just like me



in you i feel so dirty

in you I crash cars

in you I feel so pretty

in you i taste god

we must never be apart

Perfect

I know

we're just like old friends
we just can't pretend
that lovers make amends


we are

reasons so unreal
we can't help but feel
that something has been lost


but please

you know you're just like me
next time

I promise we'll be
perfect perfect

perfect
strangers down the line
lovers out of time
memories unwind


so far

I still know who you are
but now I wonder who I was


angel you know it's not the end
we'll always be good friends
the letters have been sent on


so please

you always were so free
you'll see

I promise we'll be
perfect



perfect
strangers when we meet
strangers on the street
lovers while we sleep


perfect
you know this has to be
we always we're so free
we promised that we'd be
perfect

Daphne Descends

with the sugar sickness
you spy the kidnap kid
who kids you to oblivion


it's the perfect hassle

for the perfumed kiss
he makes you miss him more than home


you love him

you love him more than this
you love him and you cannot

you can't resist

you love him you love him for yourself
you love him and no one no one else

past sidewalk ashes

alast lovers arc
you come apart to interwine


it was all so simple
as you watched him move
across the darkness in your room

you love him

you love him for yourself
you love him and no one no one else

and to the winding vines
the pretty boys dive
and thru the pinhole stars
into the shadow mind

will you lose him then
on some gentle dawn
this boy is here and gone

you love him

you love him for yourself
you love him and no one no one else

you love him

you love him more than this
you love him and you cannot

you can't resist

you love him

Once Upon A Time

Mother I'm tired
come surrender my son
time has ravaged on my soul
no plans to leave but still I go

Fallin' with the leaves
fallin' out of sleep
to the last goodbyes
who cares why?

Mother I've tried
wasting my life
I haven't given up, I lie
to make you so proud in my eyes

Fallin' out of sleep
crawlin' over me
to the last goodbyes
who cares why?

Tuesdays come and gone
restless still I drive
try to leave it all behind

Fallin' fallin' out of sleep
fallin', fallin' with the leaves
I go crawlin' over me
Once upon a time in my life...

I went falling

Mother I hope you know

that i miss you so

time has ravaged on my soul

to wipe a mothers tears grown cold

Tear

the lights came on fast

lost in motorcrash
gone in a flash unreal

but you knew all along


you laugh the light

I sing the song
to watch you numb


I saw you there
you were on your way
you held the rain
and for the first time

heaven seemed insane
cause heaven is to blame
for taking you away

do you know the way that I can?
do you know the way that I can't lose?
do you know the things that I can?
do you know the things that I can't do?


where is your heart?
where is your heart gone to?
tear me apart

tear me apart from you

you laught the light

I cry the wound
in grey afternoons

I saw you there
you were on your way
you kissed me cold
and for the first time

heaven seemed insane

for taking you away

cause heaven is to blame

for taking you away



the lights came to pass

dead opera motorcrash

gone in a flash unreal

in nitrous overcast



do you know the way that I can?

do you know the way that I can't choose?

do you know the things that I can?

do you knoe the things that i can't lose?



tear me apart

tear me apart from you

where is your heart?

where has your heart run to?

Crestfallen

who am I to need you when I'm down
and where are you when I need you around

your life is not your own
and all I ask you
is for another chance
another way around you
to live by circumstance
once again

who am I to need you now
to ask you why to tell you no
to deserve your love and sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me
and you may go but I know you won't leave
too many years built into memories

your life is not your own


who am I to need you now
to ask you why to tell you no
to deserve your love and sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me
who am I to you?

along the way

I lost my faith


and as you were you'll be again
to mold like clay to break like dirt
to tear me up in your sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me

you were never meant to belong to me

you were never meant to belong to me
who am I?

Appels + Oranjes

hat if the sun refused to shine?
what if the clouds refused to rain?
what if the wind refused to blow?
what if the seas refused to wave?
what if the world refused its turn?
what if the stars would hesitate?

what if what is isn't true?
what are you going to do?
what if what is isn't you?
does that mean you've got to lose?
digging for the feel of something new

what if the silence let you dream?
what if the air could let you breathe?
what if the words would bring you here?
what if this sound could bring you peace?



what if what is isn't true?
what are you gonna do?
digging for the feel of something new
what if what is isn't you?

what are you gonna do?


it came from your thoughts your dreams and visions
ripped up from your weeks and indecisions

what if the sun refused to shine?
what if the clouds refused to rain?
what if the world refused to turn?
what if the clocks would hesitate?

what if, what is isn't true?
what are you gonna do?
what if, what is isn't you?
does that mean you've got to lose?
digging for the feel of something new

does that mean you've got to choose?
the feel of something new
does that mean you've got to lose?
the thoughts you cannot use
what are you gonna do?

Pug

kiss and kill me sweetly
come and drive me home
drag the miles in me
I am yours alone

inside where it's warm
wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into you

desire me so deeply
drain and kick me hard
whisper secrets for me
try to go too far

inside where it's warm
wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into...

please don't change
please don't change at all
bring your rain
bring your rain to fall

inside where it's warm
wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into you

come and kiss me sweetly
ride the telephone
drag the miles to me
I am yours alone
yours alone
on the telephone
yours alone
looking for a kiss kiss
yours alone

The Tale Of Dusty And Pistol Pete

dusty screams, through doors and imaginary floors
"why can't you miss me?"
pistol pete removes the final breaths from her unkind and she is shaken
what does this mean in love or in peace?
with you lying next to me
so faithless serene
and she calls to him

let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
far out beneath the sorrow clouds
let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out through your rusted scars

alone he roams inside the ordinary catacombs of her waiting
with raven hands she steals and staggers towards her man
still scorned by his demon

because he's undone
become the language of
disaster and love vengeance and dust
and she calls to him

let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
far out beneath the sorrow clouds
let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out through your rusted scars

dusty screams through doors and imaginary scenes
of hurt and teardrop
as he holds her dow, in the cold lonely winds
together again her inside him
and she calls to him

let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
far out beneath the sorrow clouds
let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out through your rusted scars

Annie-Dog

amphetamine annie-dog
has her leash and a face
her velvet spleen her shackle spine
her dimond curse
it comes with mine

a vessel she
for violent I
confession arms awake
mine mine you were always mine
possessed by my taste

and below the angel dog
combs her hair and sings her psalms

the bombs go off
she doesn't notice
it all goes wrong
she sets things tragic

she is venus
she is mars
she's electric
and the struggle of

upon her face we leave no trace
but in her stomach mercury aged

she holds the blood
she carves the knives
she digs the wires in our babies

amphetamine annie-dog
pulls her trash
and her stories
from place to place
and bed to bed
gives of herself and the magnet head

another floor another ceiling
counting stairs with double meanings

is it wrong to be swallowed whole
to disappear in her
to give to her the priceless peace
of giving up control

we tumble out into the streets
and annie-dog she drags her leash
pretty face
ugly mouth
bitter bred and so released

and by the no
and in the yes
annie goes if you couldn't guess

a simple man
a sycophant
her elephant with the laughing cough

she wants clean sheets
and fresh flowers
her dental shots
and the hong kong glue

amphetamine annie-dog
has her leash and a face

Shame

you're gonna walk on home
you're gonna walk alone
you're gonna see this through
don't let them get to you

shame

love is good and love is kind
love is drunk and love is blind
love is good and love is mine
love is drunk all the time

shame

you're gonna walk on home
you're gonna walk alone
you're gonna walk so far
you're gonna wonder who you are

shame

love is good and love is kind
love is good and love is blind
love is good and love is mine
love is good all the time

hello goodbye

you know you made us cry

Behold! The Night Mare

I've faced the fathoms in your deep
withstood the suitors quiet siege
pulled down the heavens just to please you
appease you
the wind blows and I know

I can't go on digging roses from your grave
to linger on beyond the beyond
where the willows weep
and whirlpools sleep you'll find me
the coarse tide reflects sky



and the night mare rides on

and the night mare rides on
with a december black psalm
and the night mare rides on


what i fear is lost here
the wind blows and I know

all you have to do is run away
and steal yourself from me
become a mystery to gaze into
you're so cruel in all you do
but still I believe

I believe in you

so may you come with your own knives
you'll never take me alive
with all the force of what is true
is there nothing I can do?

I can't go on digging roses from you grave
to linger on beyond the beyond
where the willows weep
and whirlpools sleep you'll find me



and the night mare rides on

and the night mare rides on
with a december black psalm
and the night mare rides on

I've faced the fathoms in your deep
withstood the suitors quiet siege
pulled down the heavens just to please you
to hold the flower I can't keep

For Martha

whenever I run
whenever I run to you lost one
it's never done
just hanging on

the past has let me be
returning as if dream
shattered as belief

if you have to go don't say goodbye
if you have to go don't you cry
if you have to go I will get by
someday I'll follow you and see you on the other side

but for the grace of love
I'd will the meaning of
heaven from above

your picture out of time
left aching in my mind
shadows kept alive

if you have to go don't say goodbye
if you have to go don't you cry
if you have to go I will get by
I will follow you and see you on the other side

but for the grace of love
who'd will the meaning of
heaven from above

long horses we are born
creatures more than torn
mourning our way home

Blank Page

blank page was all the rage
never meant to say anything
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
got dressed drove the state line
looking for you at the five and dime
stop sign told me stay at home
told me you were not alone


balnk page was all the rage
never meant to hurt anyone
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest


you haven't changed
you're still the same
may you rise as you fall


you were easy you are forgotten
you are the ways of my mistakes


I catch the rainfall
through the leaking roof
that you had left behind


you remind me
of that leak in my soul


the rain falls
my friends call
leaking rain on the phone

take a day palnt some trees
may they shade you from me
may your children play beneath

blank page was all the rage
never meant to say anything
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
got dressed drove the state line
looking for you at the five and dime
but there I was picking pieces up

you are a ghost
of my indecision
no more little girl

17

17 seconds of compassion

17nseconds of peace

17 seconds to remember love is the energy behind which all is created

17 seconds to remember all that is good

17 seconds to forget all your hurt and pain

17 seconds of faith

17 seconds to trust you again

17 seconds of radiance

17 seconds to send a prayer up

17 seconds is all you really need